"A Mother's Love"

Some days are rough, and some days are cruel.

I can never take back what I never knew.

I didn't want to know the soul that grew inside me, I hated the father

Who lied, deceived and cheated me!

No way can I have this happen, when I can't afford another mouth to feed!

I lay awake in bed and dread the morning sun.

For I still have this round belly and nothing can be done.

I sit and hate my every emotion;

My tears keep falling like the depth of the ocean.

 

Then I hear of another option.

If I can bear the thought of adoption.

How can I not have known of this before

Instead I felt stuck like there were no more open doors.

But now I feel a sense of love and hope for this baby who will have a bright future soon.

I can meet with families and I even get to choose.

I can decide the fate of my baby.

I can decide who the parents will be.

A loving home, stability,

And two parents who will lover her endlessly.

Parents who won't be like me,

Another statistic single parent, sad story.

With this thought, another light comes to my face

For no longer do I feel disgrace.

 

My daughter deserves way more then I can provide.

I now can make this decision with a sense of pride.

Just knowing she will be in a place where she is cared, loved, provided for.

And knowing how I can give two loving parents who were trying for years and would have tried forever more, for a child of their own.

But now there are no worries, for I am here.

Someone who would have never known that my decision

could have been the best of all.

 

I am a hero in the eyes of a family who needed so much

The smell of a baby and the soft tender touch.

They say it's always better to give than to receive.

I finally realize that in the eyes of an adoptive parent to be,

Birth Mothers and their circumstances are really true blessings.

 

So a birth mother, in such a crucial time when life seemed to be so rough, and the future was so scary

God had this plan and it was this child I was to carry.

At the expense of my tears, pain and constant heartache

My experience will always remind me that my dream and goals I cannot break.

For my daughter will always be in my heart, be my inspiration and truly be the every breath I take.

-A Birth Mother